" After the song finished, I said something."

"I feel infinite."

Have you ever read The Perks of being a Wallflower? If you haven't, I highly recommend you do. Now. I feel like a lot of my life right now is in that book. The good and the not so good. How is it that people manage to write about my life without even know knowing me. Divine Inspiration? Maybe I'll ponder that one a little more.

I got received in the Episcopal Church today. And it was good. I think this is a change for the better in my spiritual life. Although there are some things I will miss from the Catholic Church (like the music every week, for example) I feel like the Episcopal church is where I belong. No more seeming strict guidelines. No more of forcing me to agree with the church on every subject that may come up (fundamental beliefs aside). No more "Catholic Guilt" (I'm almost over that). "I don’t even remember the season. I just remember walking between them and feeling for the first time that I belonged somewhere." My whole family made it down to Tuscaloosa this weekend, which I wasn't expecting. It was really nice to be able to see everyone together outside of the two times a year that usually happens. I did realize that the events where all six of us are together are usually church events, namely Easter and Christmas. Confirmations, weddings, and, inevitably, funerals. All things celebrated and blessed by the church. I have had the thought several times that I would love it if I got to celebrate Eucharist as a priest with any and all of my family sitting together in the pews, no matter the occasion.

Valentine's day is today. My 21st and counting as a single person. And I'm o.k. with that. I've thought about love and have come to the conclusion that I'm o.k. being single. I am by no means saying that I have given up on love altogether, but I'm fine where I'm at right now. I've gotten passed society's pressures of having to get married just because that's what single people do. If Mrs right comes along, then cool. But for now, single it is.

I think right now is a good place to mention how great a person Kee Sloan is. If you have not have the pleasure of meeting him, I would highly advise it. He is on my list, which I just happen to make up, of 10 people that you would want to have a conversation with. It's hard to describe how his presence is so uplifting. If you get to know him, even a little, you will probably understand. Sometimes just the thought of him can make you want to be a better person. and not in the sense that he makes you feel like you're going to hell because you're a bad person. More in the sense that you want to strive to be that kind of person for other people too. I think that I can better be that type of person if I were a priest, though probably not as good. "I was driving home, I thought about the word “special.” And I thought the last person who said that about me was my aunt Helen. I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes. And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do."


I have more on my mind, but I'll share that with you soon. Here's to feeling infinite.


"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."