"And it spread into my home...and it spread into my soul where there are no lines separating the truth from the lie."
I can feel the fire burning inside, compelling me to share. Somehow life has a way of constantly changing people people into something else. Like introverts into extroverts. Or maybe introverts into less introverts. I will be optimistic and say that I think most people change into something better, but not be naive and say that is always the case. The fire I feel growing inside me can only be described as that of the Holy Spirit. I feel that the, as Joshua would put it, divine spark is steadily growing into an uncontrollable wildfire. This is one fire I do not want to put out, though. This fire is burning to get out, to spread to others through sharing, teaching, and growing with others. I want to grow in Christ with other people. Laugh with them, cry with them, celebrate with them, and learn with and from them. It takes three main components to have a fire: fuel, heat, and air. With fuel and heat from the Trinity, now all I need is air. I need my fire to be free to spread to others. I feel the calling to ordination, so that my light may spread to those who need it. So that my fire, divinely driven, can spread.
"And it spread into the world...and it spread into the world."
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
"I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad..."
"Carry you around when your arthritis is bad,"
Is it weird if you are able to see yourself slowly growing up in front of your own eyes? I see this happening to me, especially in the last few days and weeks. I see myself growing spiritually and intellectually. Time management is imperative for me to get done what I need and want. Things sem to be moving faster than ever. Classes, meetings, appointments, bad jokes, more classes and meetings, things that need to be organized. I have emails to respond to almost daily, things that i need to make sure are getting done by someone, books to read (mostly required now, some not), papers to write and events to attend. One sign to me that world is changing is that I have to put almost everything in my calender so that I will remember what to do and when to do it. I can remember some things that happen regularly, like classes and church services, but not much more after that. My social schedule seems to be slowly giving way to things I am involved with in school and church and my fraternity. Shooting pool has now become a one night event, where as it was easily a 3 or 4 night event a few years ago. I briefly went through a stage of sleeping in until 11 a.m. or so, but now my internal clock now wakes me at or before 9:15, whether I'm tired or not. Maybe this growing up and being responsible thing isn't as bad as I imagine. I'll always have my jokes. And Toys R' Us.
"All I wanna do is grow old with you."
Is it weird if you are able to see yourself slowly growing up in front of your own eyes? I see this happening to me, especially in the last few days and weeks. I see myself growing spiritually and intellectually. Time management is imperative for me to get done what I need and want. Things sem to be moving faster than ever. Classes, meetings, appointments, bad jokes, more classes and meetings, things that need to be organized. I have emails to respond to almost daily, things that i need to make sure are getting done by someone, books to read (mostly required now, some not), papers to write and events to attend. One sign to me that world is changing is that I have to put almost everything in my calender so that I will remember what to do and when to do it. I can remember some things that happen regularly, like classes and church services, but not much more after that. My social schedule seems to be slowly giving way to things I am involved with in school and church and my fraternity. Shooting pool has now become a one night event, where as it was easily a 3 or 4 night event a few years ago. I briefly went through a stage of sleeping in until 11 a.m. or so, but now my internal clock now wakes me at or before 9:15, whether I'm tired or not. Maybe this growing up and being responsible thing isn't as bad as I imagine. I'll always have my jokes. And Toys R' Us.
"All I wanna do is grow old with you."
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